This is my Tumblr Blog.
I welcome all comers.
Chronicled within these pages is my story. I hope you enjoy going down this road with me. My hope is that on any particular day, something I say will speak to you on some level. Words have power. I intend to use them as wisely as I can. stalkers stalking
I won’t be following
You were just borrowing
Me
I think I’ve had my quota…
The Journey
In the past few years I set out on a quest to banish all negativity and drama from my life. It’s been quite a challenge, identifying the people who deserve to stay and those who need to be kicked off the island. People can fool you. Everyone puts on their most flattering face when they can, but when things get tough, most are nowhere to be found. It’s the ones who love you when you are the least lovable; who help you when you need it the most, never asking a thing in return; the ones who notice every little change and accept you for exactly who you are… warts and all.
And there are some people who mean well, but miss the mark. They think they know me, but their jokes are offensive, hurtful, rude, or I’m just not the person they think I am. I make no apologies for my low BS tolerance. Be nice or leave. Period. That’s just how it’s gonna be. I’m notorious for giving people more chances than they deserve. If you’ve wronged me and you seem to have no conscience about it, you may find yourself in possession of a very well-written letter.
It’s never too late to stand up for yourself.
There are some people who have so much good in them, they make me so happy when I’m around them and I’ve never felt more like myself. The greatest pleasure in life is to enjoy the process of growing into who we’re supposed to be. I’m very grateful to have so many of them in my life now and to have recognized how special some were so many years ago when we first met. It is through the amazing, colorful, brilliant, warm, insightful, witty, lovely people who have filled my life with such happiness that I am able to face all of life’s challenges with a smile and a wink. You all give me strength. There are not enough words in the English language to be able to thank you enough.
Someday you will realize just how amazing you really are.
After that, someone else will too.
This was a thought I had. It was such a good one that I made it my Facebook status. I thought that if saying it to myself helped me so much, maybe others needed to hear such an affirmation as well.
It rings so true. Too often I’ve squandered my specialness on those who don’t deserve a minute of my time. I’ve seen potential where there was none, held out false hope, left too many doors open.
There are too many people out there who will use you for what you can give them. They take full advantage, wandering in and out of your life whenever they feel like it. Perhaps I’m too nice, too forgiving. Maybe nowadays everyone is so fiercely independent, masking all sorts of insecurities and commitment issues. Everyone wants to be with someone, but no one cares about making it last.
I’m putting my foot down. Take it or leave it. I’m better than this.
Side note on the music. It’s “Yo-Yo” by Linda Strick and it appears on the “Assault of the Killer Bimbos” soundtrack. I was introduced to this song when I was in the studio in high school, recording with my producer. He gave me a rough copy of a song we were writing together on the flip side of her demo and I kept listening to this song over and over.
Sadly, the past few years I’ve felt more like a yo-yo than anything else.
But the tides are turning. Albeit slowly, but they are. I’m making it so.
2012 Resolutions
I shall resolve to:
- Put myself first. Know when to say no… stay in… sever ties. I will trust my instincts and respect my body. I will figure out who is worth my time, my effort and the opening up of my heart. If they do not deserve it, they don’t get it. Period.
- Stop allowing myself to be used. Get tough. Develop a thicker skin. This is completely unacceptable. If you don’t respect me, if you run around behind my back with other girls, if you’re my priority and I’m your option… Good riddance. Get the FUCK out of my life!
- Stop caring about what other people think. People are fickle, opinionated, and ridiculous. I have more important things to attend to.
- Spend more time with my parents. No one will ever love me the way they do.
- Transform my house into a place I would want to live. Remove the unnecessary. Sell, consign, donate, recycle, toss. Maximize efficiency to make the most of my limited time there. Box by box, shelf by shelf, room by room.
- Pass the State Board Exam & become a Licensed Esthetician.
- Streamline my work week schedule. Incorporate time for exercise, a healthy diet, and a decent amount of sleep. Get to work earlier… a LOT earlier!
- Take a vacation by myself somewhere I’ve always wanted to go. Come back relaxed and at peace.
- Reconvene Cherry and go to the next level. Write more original songs. Record. Make YouTube videos. Get back in the studio. Collaborate with interesting people.
- Bring my makeup artist business to the next level. Keep working with the studios. Keep up with all the latest products and technologies. Stay educated and informed. Invest when necessary. Be the BEST!
MAKE IT HAPPEN!!!
